Happy Halloween! Logan was dashing tonight as a little firefighter. Gosh I love this kid! He was so excited to knock on the doors and say "twick or tweat"! After receiving a few pieces of candy he yelled, "I got it, I got it!" Ah, holidays are 10 times the fun when you get to watch your children enjoy them.
Anyways, life is chugging along. The predicament I find myself in is this... How do I put myself out there when my time is consumed with motherhood and work? I basically have 1 free night each week, which I typically spend at the gym or at a friend's house. It's not that I don't want to be "out" there, but being "out" there means I have to give up my time... which usually translates to my time with Logan. And what does being "out" there really mean? What measures of desperation do I need to take in order to be deemed as putting myself out there? Should I have to give up time with Logan to make time for the potential possibility of finding someone? And what if I do find someone? Is it possible to balance them on the side while feeling that I'm able to give my all to Logan? Or will I inevitably and constantly feel selfish? That my desire for love has to be a trade-off for my desire to be a mother. Does it?
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